“The Sabbath is a patch of ground secured by a tiny fence, when we withdraw from the endless choices afforded us and listen, uncover what is ultimately important, remember what is quietly sacred. Sabbath restrictions on work and activity actually create a space of great freedom; without these self-imposed restrictions, we may never be truly free.”
~Wayne Muller, Sabbath:Finding Rest, Renewal, and Delight in Our Busy Lives

Sometimes the sheer juxtapositions that can occur in any given snapshot of life can be so jarring. You just have to take a deep breath and rest with them for awhile, try to discern the wisdom of seemingly disjointed events that are spaced so closely together that it must mean something. A lesson, perhaps? A bit of universal wisdom thrown down like a gauntlet at your feet?

Just such an experience happened to me this weekend. On Saturday, I went to a movie I had looked forward to, one that had been well received by critics. Shortly into the movie I realized that my expectations were a little off and that, what I thought was a comedy, was instead something much deeper, darker, more disturbing. The film consisted of, in my opinion, adults(read here, who were old enough to know better) acting on the first thought or feeling that came into their minds. The choices they were making seemed self-centered and without a mindfulness as to what their actions would mean to others around them, namely their partners, co-workers, children. Now, I know, the stuff of fiction relies on this kind of behavior. We don’t read novels or go to movies to see people living boring lives! So, in that case, the movie did its work….it made me ask questions, feel sad, be angry, even shed a tear. Hold that thought for a minute.

Then yesterday, I was privileged to listen to a group of people who had made the choice to be in community with one another. This community, the St. Brigid of Kildare monastery, is made up of United Methodists who are following the Rule of St. Benedict, protestants living the monastic life.Though they live in far-flung places around the country, they have made the choice to be in community with one another, setting their life path in prayer, scripture and acts of justice and service. They have made a definite choice about how they will walk in the world with the full knowledge of how we are all connected in ways we cannot always know, ways that require us to choose our words and our actions wisely, ways that are full of reminders of how we are images of our Creator.

I think of the choices I have made in my life, the big choices, and I pray I have given them adequate attention and time to serve, not only myself, but all those whose lives intersect with mine. I think of the choices we are asked to make daily, from the foods we eat to the things we purchase, to those we eat with and those we pass by. I pray as Wayne Muller suggests to us, that I am able to take into deep consideration what is important in an ultimate way and not just for the thrill of any given moment. I pray that I never, ever forget that I am a small being tied with invisible lines of connection to those I know and see, to those I have never met, and to the vast Universe of which we are all a part, a tiny part.

How we make our choices depends on so many things. But attention to those choices have the gift of leading us to a freedom that brings joy and not sorrow. For every choice to be made this day, may there be an extra breath taken, a deep listening for what is sacred and ultimate. And may the world be a better place for the Sabbath moment we take in all our choices.

“What one loves in childhood stays in the heart forever.” ~Mary Jo Putney

Over the past weeks, I have been skimming a wonderful book entitled Storycatcher: Making Sense of Our Lives through the Power and Practice of Story by Christina Baldwin. I am reading this book in preparation for our church’s fall theme of “A Story to Stand On.” More about that at a later date. While reading the book, I saw this little quote tucked in the edges of the margin and it made me smile. As these summer days have held us captive with their heat and humidity, most of my native Minnesota friends have been complaining and hibernating in the air conditioning. If I have the courage to mention that I actually like this weather, I am given that stern glare of a teacher who has just caught a child cheating on a test. “How can you like this weather?”

I like it because it is the weather of my childhood. I like the way the air smells damp with humidity, how the mornings have moisture hanging along the trees and plants, a moisture that mimics fog. I like how the evenings draw on, how you can hear the neighborhood children after dark as they try to wring a few more moments of play out of the hot day. I like how your iced tea glass sweats and you are forced to wrap a paper towel around it to keep it from dripping down your arm. I like the sort of dazed looks on people’s faces as they stand waiting for the bus or those who have been working in their gardens, how the heat has dulled any thought of worry or trouble. There is only the temperature to be reckoned with and it is a powerful force.

On hot summer days like these, I love going to the library where people have sought solace. In the cool air they walk among the stacks looking at books they might not have taken the time to even pull off the shelf in the dead of winter. They linger over a cheesy novel. Who knows? It might just be the book that will take them through this hot spell. Children, sunburned and glassy-eyed from being swimming most of the day, sit at tables looking at picture books while teenagers rifle through adventure and fantasy stories wishing to be snapped into the drama of its pages. Yesterday, I had the privilege of an hour or more to sit on the couch reading a book for no other good reason than it was too hot to do anything else. What a gift!

When I moved to Minnesota, I embraced the cold and snow, the sheer pride we feel when we speak of things like wind chill and white outs. But the loves of my childhood have stuck with me. Sweaty legs tucked up on a porch swing, a book held loosely, while balancing a glass of sweet tea and listening to the cicadas hum background music. The summers of my childhood will always hold a soft spot in my heart. I could move to the frozen tundra and it would not change.

What are your child hood loves? What lovely memory from child hood have you left untended? May you be blessed today with a visitation of those things which will always have a sweet resting spot in your heart. And may you stay cool…….

“Come, grow old with me. The best is yet to be.”
~Robert Browning

Today is a day for feeling lucky. Today is a day for knowing I am blessed. I suppose the difference between luck and blessing is all a matter of how you see your life and where you aim the gratitude. I am standing, like Libra, holding the scales of luck and blessing as I look back on twenty-five years of marriage.  Twenty-five years ago today, on an equally hot and humid August Saturday, my husband and I were married. It seems nearly impossible that so many years have sped by. And yet, this morning as we looked at our photo album from that day, the years became visible to us. We saw our younger, thinner selves flanked by other younger versions of our friends. We gazed upon children who now have children of their own. Most poignantly, we saw faces of those who are no longer with us. Some were already elderly when their photo was snapped that day. Others, as young as ourselves or even younger, have tragically been taken from this life. To look at the photos provided a perspective on what twenty-five years really looks like.

Many of the people in the images have continued to surround us these years, are still our friends and the dearest people in our lives. Others, we remarked, we have not seen much since that day. And yet, they sent us off in style and their blessing created the soil in which we planted much hope. As one who now is on the official end of marrying people, I always try to remind the couple that those they have chosen to be present at their wedding are the ones who are helping to create the threshold over which they will step into a life together. For those who are witnesses to the vows that are made, I offer a reminder that they are the ones who are promising, by their presence, to support the couple through the inevitable ups and downs of married life.  In these twenty-five years, we have certainly known the blessing of such a supportive circle.

And yet, the statistics of failed marriage in our country is not lost on me today. And that is, perhaps, where the feeling of luck comes in. While we have had amazing support, loving family and friends, a strong faith, a deep love, a good dose of sheer stubbornness and lots of laughter, we have also watched those we love go down a different path than the one we have been privileged to travel. And so, with all the blessings, I also feel mighty lucky.

Luck or blessing? I think it is a bit of both. And through it all, my heart is filled with a deep, deep gratitude.

“The autumn quarter of Lughnasadh brings the gift of maturity and is a time of physical harvest and spiritual garnering. It sees the greatest change in weather from broiling heat to dark and chilly nights. It is the time for celebrating the harvest and sees the busy preparations for winter. In the human growth cycle, Lughnasadh corresponds to the period of mature adulthood when a certain steadiness and responsibility have been established. It is a good time to celebrate the lives of all you have helped stabilize and uphold the noble values of life, of all who have exercised good judgment and steered the doubtful into the harbor of certainty, of all holy ones whose guardianship has saved us from life-disabling mistakes.”
~Celtic Devotional:Daily Prayers and Blessings, Caitlin Matthews

Have you begun to feel and smell the chill of autumn in the air of these August mornings? If you follow the Celtic calendar, you might know that August 1st begins the season of Lughnasadh( pronounced ‘loo-nah-sah’) or autumn. The season extends from the first of August to October 31st and carries us from the heat of summer to the fires that warm us on late fall evenings. For some time now I have done a check-in with myself using this calendar. Somehow it seems to make sense to me and finds a home in the rhythm of my body and daily life.

Over the last weeks I have been gathering the fruits and vegetables of summer to ‘put by’ for the winter months. Strawberry jam, blueberries in the freezer, cucumbers turned into both sweet and sour pickles are beginning to fill the shelves of the pantry. My husband walked through the kitchen on Saturday and rightly asked, “Why do you always have to can on the hottest days of the year?” The simple answer is that this is when the produce is ripe and, to be ready for winter, you have to work while the sun shines and the temperatures rise! Of course, none of this is truly necessary. Everything I squirrel away for winter is available year round if you want to pay the price. But it does my heart, and my soul, good to ride the waves of the seasons in this way, to live by the calendar of what is growing and what is not. It somehow just seems to me like the right and faithful thing to do.

On Saturday a group of friends sat on our deck enjoying the mounting summer heat and the presence of one another’s company and frequent laughter. I could hear them as I chopped and diced in the kitchen. At one point someone came through the room and asked me what the Celts called the season of autumn. I stopped to remember that indeed, July 31st, was the last day of summer according to this calendar. As I answered, he held out a gift to me: “Look what just fell into my lap.” he said.  He held out a small leaf from our black walnut tree. A small, beautiful yellow leaf.

The Celts would offer this welcome to the season and all the yellow leaves yet to come: “Lady of the Land, open the door, Lord of the forest, come you in. Let there be welcome to the bountiful compassion. Let there be welcome to the Autumn of the Year. In fruit and grain you are traveling. In ferment and bread you will arrive. May the blessed time of Lughnasadh nourish the soul of all beings, bringing love and healing to all hurts. From the heights to the the depths, from the depths to the heights, to the wounds of every soul.”

And so riding the wave begins. So be it.

“My religion is very simple. My religion is kindness.” The Dalai Lama

For some reason I have been thinking about kindness lately. To put it plainly, I realized that I have been in several settings in which kindness was in short supply, where people chose hurtful rather than helpful words. I recognize that it had begun to nag at my soul. So when I was at a restaurant yesterday and I was about to move a chair to sit down and a young man turned and smiled at me and, instead, moved the chair for me, I somehow was stunned by his effort. It seems simple enough, I know, but with all the jagged edges that were sticking out of my skin, it seemed the sweetest, gentlest of actions. I was melted by his kindness.

Sometime last week, I listened to a report on MPR about the civility or lack thereof in our culture right now. There were many reasons given for this phenomenon not the least of which was our ability to communicate with others via email and other social networks which don’t require face-to-face connections. It feels quite safe to say whatever comes to our minds and hit send without any personal censoring. We react quickly, sometimes rashly and pass on our words in the blink of an eye. All without the benefit of seeing the flinch of another, the grimace that crosses a face, or even the tear that might roll down a cheek. With all the positive ease this form of communication brings to our lives, this is one of the true downfalls.

Kindness. Who comes to your mind when you think of ‘kindness’? A parent? A teacher? A neighbor? Your child? A dear friend? Have you known the kindness of strangers in your life? Have you been extended the hospitality of kindness? I hope so. I hope there are many people that come to mind who have been bearers of kindness. Sometimes it is a surprising gift, like the young man who moved the chair, his face all full of smiles. And then there are those times when you know you will be walking into kindness. You look forward to it, like a special holiday meal, anticipate its healing properties.  I can think of a couple of retreat centers I have frequented where kindness seems to seep out of the very walls.

This morning I learned that one of the kindest men I know had passed yesterday from this life to the next. It was a blow. He was someone who walked into a room and kindness seemed to float off his words, his movements, his very being like proverbial fairy dust. Though he was older and had had tenuous health, it was still difficult to hear of his passing, to imagine the world without his signature grace and goodness.

Kindness. It can seem an elusive thing most days. But, perhaps,the real lesson is that we each carry this magic fairy dust. The discipline is to use it. Often. And always.

“Seize life! Eat bread with gusto,
Drink wine with a robust heart.
Oh yes – God takes pleasure in your pleasure!
Dress festively every morning.
Don’t skimp on colors or scarves.
Relish life with the spouse you love
Each and every day of your precarious life.
Each day is God’s gift. It’s all you get in exchange
For the hard work of  staying alive.
Make the most of each one!
Whatever turns up, grab it and do it. And heartily!
This is your last and only chance at it,
For there’s neither work to do nor thought to think
In the company of the dead, where you’re most certainly headed.”
~Ecclesiastes 9:7-10

This was the scripture one of my colleagues read for devotions at our staff meeting yesterday. In the course of all I did during the hours that followed that meeting I kept thinking back to these words, this interpretation in Eugene Peterson’s The Message. What a ‘carpe diem’, seize the day, message! It made me question the little things that wanted to nag at my spirit, to let them go in favor of embracing the last and only chance at this gift of a day.

While most people are somewhat familiar with the words of Ecclesiastes 3, ‘for everything there is a season’, most don’t read through much of the rest of the book. They know this text, not so much from Sunday School, as from the lyrics of the Byrd’s song ‘Turn, Turn, Turn’ and subsequent remakes of that recording through different generations. Ecclesiastes is a part of the Wisdom literature in the Bible, words meant to provide wisdom and guidance for life in the real world. And Ecclesiastes 9 does this as good as any self-help book you might pull off the shelf at Barnes & Noble: “Seize life! Eat and drink heartily. Put on your best and brightest clothes. Today is God’s gift, never to be relived. Take what the day brings and find a place of gratitude in it.” In  my opinion, it doesn’t get much better, or wiser, than that.

Of course, like any good piece of wisdom, it does point out the obvious. This day is our ours to create and live and what we make of it is the currency we use in exchange for the hard work that goes into it. I recognize that I read these words from a place of privilege and that there are those who do not have much say in what their day will hold, may not have the chance to eat or drink with gusto if at all, have no choice in what clothes they wear. This understanding makes this scripture even more urgent to me. And of course, there is that bit about being in the ‘company of the dead’. Sobering, huh?

So, today is already on its way, this gift from God is already unfolding before us. I’ve yet to decide what I’ll wear today but I promise it will be colorful and may even be completed with a scarf. And as I eat my lunch, I plan to savor each bite as if it were my last. I plan to pay attention to the relationships in my life that bring me joy and offer love in return. At day’s end I hope to be able to hand over the hard work of this day as payment for staying alive.

It simply seems like the wise way to live.

On Friday I had the blessing of being invited to pick blueberries with close friends. The invitation included a beautiful drive south, through the hills and bluffs of Minnesota’s river valley along the shores of the Mississippi and through the corn and soybean fields that are the lifeblood of farm families. The whole trip was a testament to the gifts of beauty and of summer. As we curved and jogged off the main highway toward the Rush River Farms, farmhouses and animals….cows, horses, ponies, even a sweet, little donkey….seemed to greet the city dwellers. “Welcome to our world! Come and rest awhile.”, they seemed to say.

Upon our arrival, we saw that we were not the only people who woke up and thought that picking blueberries was the thing to do that day. Cars lined the makeshift parking lot that, in the winter, must be nothing more than the entrance to the barn and the side yard. Children played on a tire swing hung from a huge oak tree nestled in the backyard of the farmhouse. “Why did they put a swing here?” I heard one city boy ask. What better place for a swing, I thought, as I took in the view of the green, rolling hills?  Swinging from that tree must feel like flying!

As we approached the blueberry fields, I noticed three different places where Buddhist prayer flags flew in the early morning breeze. The flags, tied to stakes in the ground, formed a canopy to the entrance of the fields and ringed the shelter where our berries would eventually be weighed and priced. Their bright primary colors…red, yellow, blue, green and white….were now faded from the sun and frayed from the wind. But they still held a peaceful, steady presence over the berries and the hands who picked the luscious fruit. I wondered what prayers had been infused in those pieces of fabric, prayers for a good crop, for sunshine, for rain, for temperatures that made for a bountiful harvest. All, prayers of hope.

If you pick alone, the act of picking berries allows for quiet time, for noticing your own breath, the sweat that forms at your temples and the nape of your neck. It can become a meditative time. It also allows for over hearing the conversations of those around you. Two women one row over lamented the aches and pains of growing older. Their conversation was punctuated with laughter directed at themselves. A family on my other side talked about the games they were playing with guests at their home. “Can you play that game in French?” the mother asked. The sound of young voices speaking French followed. Amazing!

But perhaps the best words I heard came at the height of my picking. A new crop of pickers arrived and as they made their way into the field one young girl could not contain herself. “Look! Look! It’s a Blueberry Wonderland!”

And indeed it was. A blueberry wonderland created through hard work and, no doubt, sacrifice, held in the gentle breeze by good weather, ripe conditions,countless prayers and a life based in hope.

For a look at Rush River Produce check out their website http://www.rushriverproduce.com/ and don’t miss the You Tube video.

“Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts.” Rachel Carson

Yesterday I had the privilege of attending the final hour or so of our church’s Earth Camp at our retreat center, Koinonia, near Annandale. I arrived around lunch time to find a group of campers headed back from the dining room to their cabin. Instead of walking along the paved path, they headed directly into the woods. When one young girl saw me walking from my car, she threw up her hands and waved. “It’s me! Emma!” I see her nearly every Sunday. And yet she must have thought that, here in the woods, I would not recognize her. I greeted her and the other campers and watched as they turned and walked into the grove of trees, their feet making a silent path on dirt, stone and dead leaves. Over the last few days, they had become children of the woods.

A little later, as we gathered for a closing worship time, I asked the campers to tell me what they had experienced, what they had learned, what new thing had come to them over their days at Earth Camp. I heard tales of fishing, boating, swimming. I heard about how they had learned about recycling, how to use energy more responsibly, how to be more careful about their garbage. Others talked about how they had learned to walk more gently on the Earth. One girl said she had been frightened of the daddy-long-legs that had been near her bed but then learned that they ate the mosquitoes. She swore they had saved her from being bitten!

When I watched their young faces light up with the stories of new friends and all the fun they had had, I felt so grateful that these young ones had been given the gift of being in the woods. Richard Louv, author of Last Child in the Woods, writes about saving our children from nature-deficit disorder. He speaks of all the children who never have the chance to walk aimlessly on wooded paths, observe birds and other small animals in their natural habitat, experience their human connection with a daddy-long-legs. He says: “The child in nature is an endangered species, and the health of children and the health of the Earth are inseparable.”

As I helped these children load their now dirty belongings into the vans that will take them back to well manicured lawns and city and suburban neighborhoods, I felt a sense of hope. Hope for the children and for the Earth. While not all children will have the experience of watching the small toads hop from shore to water home or see the Great Blue Heron land its enormous body on a nest just feet away from where they are swimming, these twenty-seven children had. Their band-aided knees and bug-bit arms and legs showed the signs of an encounter with nature. And it was good, very, very good. Perhaps they will tell their friends and next year a whole new crop of children will head to the woods to learn, to have fun, to be changed. The connections will be made again and reinforced that we humans are guests on this precious planet. We share our present and our future with creatures with many legs, enormous wings, and fragile lives.

And we are all in it together.

"We take pictures because we can't accept that everything passes, we can't accept that the repetition of a moment is an impossibility. We wage a monotonous war against our own impending deaths, against time that turns children into that other, less species: adults. We take pictures because we know we will forget. We will forget the week, the day, the hour. We will forget when we were happiest. We take pictures out of pride, a desire to have the best of ourselves preserved. We fear that we will die and others will not know that we lived." The Year of Fog by Michelle Richmond

A couple of weeks ago I read this compelling novel about a young woman, a professional photographer, who is walking on a beach with her fiance's six-year-old daughter. The woman sees a dead seal pup and stops to take a photo. When she turns back, the six-year-old has vanished. The novel explores the search for this child placed in the care of someone 'not quite her mother'. But more than that, it explores memory. How does memory actually work? Why do we remember some things and not others? As humans, how does memory serve us, fail us? What can we do to preserve memory or jog it when needed? All fascinating questions.

Toward the end of the novel, I was taken aback by the paragraph above. Its truth goes straight for the heart, doesn't it? I was probably taken so with these words because it brought into the light a strange part of my personality with which I have struggled. I love to go into antique stores, love looking at the china, furniture and even clothing that has been held dear by people and been preserved for our use and our memory of what we often perceive of as 'simpler' times. I am fairly certain that perception is not true. But the one thing I cannot bring myself to look at in these stores are the boxes of old photographs. These images of the people's lives placed in cardboard boxes for total strangers to rifle through disturbs me. I want to buy them all, take them home, fill albums with them. 

With the use of digital photography,taking pictures comes so easily to us these days. We can take a picture, zoom in, zoom out, take the red out of eyes, crop pictures, in an effort to create the 'perfect' image. But we all know life is not like that. Sometimes we look goofy, our hair askew, eyes closed, our mouths in a sideways position, not quite a smile or frown. Unlike our ancestors who had to remain very still, perhaps travel long distances to 'sit' for a photo, we take them and discard them with the push of a button. A quirky little thing our family does is to keep some of those 'bad' photos, the ones in which we don't look our best, and preserve them in little books called 'The Beautiful People'. They bring such laughter as we look through these albums. They remind us that we are not always at our best, that looking disheveled and unattractive is all a part of being human, of living a life.

At times we will take out picture albums and begin to look through them with our children or with friends. Looking at the images of us as younger, sometimes thinner people, always brings the eventual storytelling. "Remember that?" "What was I thinking wearing that?" "Oh, wasn't that a lovely day?" "Didn't she look wonderful?" On and on the memories and the stories will unfold. In their telling we remind ourselves of who we are, who we once were and, if we are lucky, we pass the story on to another generation who might continue its telling. The photos are the catalyst that connects with some experience that has been planted in the cells of who we are. That experience lays waiting to be conjured up and relived, retold, passed on. For as long as people have been picking up rocks and charred sticks and painting their stories on the walls of caves, it has been true. We tell, and we try to capture our images, so we will be remembered, so we can remember.

Do you have an old photo album that has remained dusty on a shelf? Is there a drawer packed with pictures you have been waiting till you have time to organize in an album? Perhaps it is a good time to take a look at those photos and remember. Remember and tell someone the story of that special day, that special person. The gift of memory is one of the true acts of being human and one to be celebrated. Because, indeed, this moment can never be lived again.