“Worship is thus our whole life– our breath, our food, our work, our play. It encompasses human being: birth to funeral, night and day, inhale, exhale, rise and fall, black, white, and with all the shades of the rainbow, solitude and multinational conversation.”
~Pamela Ann Moeller

This morning was one of ‘those’ mornings, a morning when I couldn’t quite get my spirit to haul my body to the office right away. On days like these, I sometimes do what we call in my family an ‘RDS’. These three little letters stand for ‘ride down Summit’, Summit being the avenue that moves past some of the most beautiful homes in St. Paul. These mansions built by some of the city’s wealthy founders continue to impress decades after they were built. At this particular point of springtime, it is a breathtaking drive. Lilac bushes send forth their sweet, fragrant flowers lining long sections of the drive. Well manicured lawns and professionally planned gardens make for show-stopping scenery. For a prescription of healing beauty, it can’t be beat.

There are many churches that line this avenue. Most are as immense and eye-popping as the neighboring houses. I have been keeping an eye on House of Hope Presbyterian Church as they simultaneously do spectacular stone repair and plant a community garden. For some reason the juxtaposition of these two activities makes me laugh and fills me with such hope.

But it was a sign in front of another church that caught my attention. “Experience God Service”, it read. I did a double take to make sure I had read it correctly. Much as some churches advertise a ‘healing’ service or a ‘recovery’ service, this one was inviting people in to an ‘experience God’ service. What a concept!

Driving on down the beautiful avenue, I began to think what might happen at this service. Of course, those of us who plan for worship each and every Sunday do so with the hope that each service is one in which people experience the Presence of the Holy. We choose all the words we think are fitting, carefully pour over what music will lead people into hearing the scripture of the day in illuminating ways, fashion prayers to be read and make a special spot for the sermon. But the question always remains, did anyone one experience God?

As I think of the many times when I have had an experience of the Divine, it has only sometimes been in a church setting. When I have been in places when people have described their own experiences of the Holy, my memory is that the stories they tell are more often about something that moved them while in the woods, at the ocean or as a wind brushed past their face in some remote and wildly, beautiful place. No one was at work fashioning any kind of liturgy or carefully preparing words to provide the environment for this to happen. God just showed up in surprising and transforming ways. All these thoughts have led me all day to wonder what it is we are really doing when we create worship.

My biggest wondering became thinking that perhaps our real work, those of us who have given our days and our lives to this thing called church, is to provide a container, an open, gentle container. A container into which those who wish come to find home in community. Into this container we pour enough space, enough silence, enough breathing room for people to slow down and remember their own bodies, their own heartbeat, their own deepest longings and most passionate hopes. Are not these the movement of Spirit in each of us? In that spacious, loving container we name as sanctuary, we all wait and listen for ways we can then go into the regular living of our days, our daily walking in the world. Perhaps it is in these Monday through Saturday places that are the ‘services’ in which we will truly experience God.

I can hear many of my colleagues arguing with this idea. And I am not completely sure about it either. But on this day, which was one of ‘those’ days, the idea just wouldn’t leave me. And perhaps that was an Experience God service, too.

Not quite four a.m., when the rapture of being alive
strikes me from sleep, and I rise
from the comfortable bed and go
to another room, where my books are lined up
in their neat and colorful rows. How
magical they are! I choose one
and open it. Soon
I have wandered in over the waves of the words
to the temple of thought.
And then I hear
outside, over the actual waves, the small,
perfect voice of the loon. He is also awake,
and with his heavy head uplifted he calls out
to the fading moon, to the pink flush
swelling in the east that, soon,
will become the long, reasonable day.
Inside the house
it is still dark, except for the pool of lamplight
in which I am sitting.
I do not close the book.
Neither, for a long while, do I read on.
~Mary Oliver

A couple of weeks ago I spent some time staring out at the waters of Lake Sylvia. It is a beautiful lake on which our church’s retreat center finds its home. One of my favorite spots there is a swing the size of a porch swing that faces the lake. Sitting on it provides that perfect combination of water moving in the breezes with the rhythmic, calm movement of swinging. Back and forth. Back and forth. I do this to allow my spirit to catch up with the often frantic pace of my body’s full-speed-ahead movement in the world.

I arrived in the early morning having driven a little over an hour through early rush hour traffic. My bloodstream was probably also pumping with caffeine. Sitting in that swing allowed my pulse to slow and my mind to stop following whatever shiny thing that passed across its radar. Slowly, ever so slowly, the back and forth motion did its trick and I found myself become fully present in the moment. My breath became deep and purposeful, rich and full with this precious life.

My eyes had also stopped darting from thing to thing and I stared into the middle distance. That’s when I heard it. Out in the middle of the lake, the tremulous, rich sound of the loon bounced off the waves of water sending its song toward my listening ears. The moment became complete and utter joy. I continued my back and forth motion to the song of summer’s call.

This was my first loon song of summer and I felt so blessed to have been present to it, actually aware of its gift to me. I looked across the glassy surface of the lake as the black and white dots and striped body descended deep into the still freezing waters. Soon I would see its head emerge in some other place on the lake as I marveled at its ability to hold its breath and travel so far. It seemed at that moment there was just me and the loon awake and aware of the privilege of being alive.

I did not grow up with the sound of the loon. It was not a native bird to my southern Ohio roots. I believe we were probably only a fly-over zone in their migration pattern. If this Minnesota bird was a part of my youth, I was oblivious. But once I established these northern climes as home, the sound of the loon has come to signal so much. Hot summer nights. The freedom of moving from pajamas to swimsuit. Food cooked over open fires and under warm,starry skies. Lazy reading into the wee hours of the night. Being awakened by the nearby sound of flapping wings on water and the mournful cry of this strong yet mysterious bird. Soothing small, sweaty children whose sleep was disturbed by the same magical sounds.

Loons have many calls, many songs they sing for various occasions. Most are mystery to me as I’m sure my language, my song, is to them. All I know is that when I hear that plaintive, haunting tone ring through the air, something calms in me and I feel grounded in something deep and ancient. A freedom rises in my throat and I sense the possibility that comes with embracing summer.

A lake. A swing. A loon song. Deep breaths all around.

I have really only lived in about four houses in my life. This is, of course, not including the dorm rooms and apartments of college and those few years afterward when I shared a variety of great and terrible living spaces with friends. This probably explains why my nesting instinct goes pretty deep. I am a person of minimal nests. Anytime my husband and I begin to talk about moving….some day….to a smaller more manageable space, I often have a visceral, choking sensation someplace at the base of my throat.

Until I was eighteen I lived in the same house my mother still lives in. It is a house that started out as many did in the early fifties. A box shape with four rooms and a bath with others exactly like it lining the treeless street. Over the years it has had at least two additions that I remember and several remakes to make room for more kids and more stuff. The tall maples now dwarf many of the single story homes. It is the nest from which I launched. I love the look of it, the smell of it, and memory of it. It is simple and understated but it is my image of home.

Last week I stood with our neighbor as the moving truck pulled up to her house. She has not lived full time in this house for years. She lives most of her time in Alaska where her adult daughters immigrated some years ago. The oldest of these daughters was present for this final move, this final sale of her ‘growing up ‘ house. The mother told me what a mess her daughter was, crying over the loss of this childhood connection. As I listened the mother’s eyes also filled with tears. So much life had been lived in those walls and now that chapter was truly coming to an end. My heart went out to them both knowing that I would be having the same reaction, will be having the same reaction some day.

Our oldest son came home to a house we no longer live in, having moved to the house we now call home when he was a little over two years old. It is a house I loved, the first I had ever had a hand in owning. When we left that house, I had to be the last to leave, staying long after the last box had been taken away. A friend who understood stayed with me as I moved from room to room sweeping and remembering, saying goodbye. To this day when I am in that neighborhood, I drive by to see the house and marvel at the now enormous tree we planted as a sapling, a wedding gift from friends.

These places we call home are important. The walls live and breathe our joys and sorrows, our laughter and tears. They show the scars of our arguments and the marks of children’s growth. They house our memories and ground us in a community and landscape that knows us and names us. We are imprinted in them and they in us.

I am imagining that my neighbor and her daughter were experiencing all of this and more when they put the final box on the truck and closed the door for the last time. She told me the new owners were going to make some changes in the house and she was sure she did not want to see them. She offered a place to stay anytime we come to Alaska. Seems a far fetched chance but I nodded my assent as I left her to her severed grieving.

Someday another neighbor will no doubt have a similar conversation with me as I pack, clean and close the door. No doubt, like her, I will not want to see the changes that will be made in this place in which so much has grown. Until then I am feathering my nest for the summer that is just around the corner…… and the years yet to come.

“My dissipating thoughts of life in terms of victory or defeat came along willy-nilly from a culture that pretended that life was far more solid than it actually was. The edges were actually blurred and moved along in the infinitely variable shape of a river.”
~Jim Harrison, The English Major

Last night I finished this interesting novel which included these two sentences. Sentences that captured my imagination and sent me back through the pages to find them this morning. The novel is the story of a sixty year old man who is confronted with several life situations that throw him for a loop and send him on a cross country tour of self discovery. It is a ‘coming of age’ story for an older generation. At one point in the story, after attempting to climb a mountain without the correct footwear, minus enough water and provisions, still filled with lots of anger and angst about his life, he makes this realization. The script he had held up to this point seemed to be about some projected sense of victory in life that was clear cut, logical, fair and deserved despite the odds. It became a turning point of embracing the ambiguities of his life and seeing its living as more a twisting, turning river than a well developed system of highways.

In some ways, the story made me laugh. How does one get to be sixty years old and not discover such wisdom? But then I realized how deeply ingrained this notion of victory and defeat is in our culture, how deeply present is the believe that things are more solid than they are. I think of the immense number of dollars spent on all kinds of competitions that have clear cut winners and equally clear cut losers. We enroll our children in just such situations at a very early age and they soon learn the drill of victory and defeat. In the same way, we ensure them that they can be anything they want to be if they work hard enough. And while this kind of privilege is more possible perhaps in this nation than in many others, we know that it is not completely true and sets many up for a lifetime of frustration, anger, depression and pain. This life is not as solid as the picture we want to paint of it.

I fear we have even done a similar thing in our faith communities. We have, mirroring our culture, created language and stories and doctrines that give the illusion that this life’s journey lived in faith can be followed without much messiness, can be carried out without much pain or suffering if we only follow the rules or hang around with those who think, believe, speak the way we do. Of course, those of us in the Christian household have as our example one who did everything but follow the rules, never hung around with the ‘right’ people and in all practical understanding would have been thought of as suffering defeat. The river of Jesus’ life was full of currents and snags that could be wisdom for us.

Where is the river of your life taking you lately? Has it been a nice, easy, lazy river ride or have you found yourself in rough waters with blurred edges, unable to see what is around the bend? Do there seem to be more rapids than usual, more opportunities to dump onto jagged stones? Or are you moving along taking in the burgeoning spring trees placed in your view for your delight? Whatever the water ride, may we find moments of gratitude and mercy.

This metaphor of river for our life is a powerful one. I have found it helpful so many times. It has been an image that has calmed and inspired people throughout time to hold their own lives lightly, gently knowing that a river is an ever-moving, always evolving body of great power. Much like your life, much like mine.

My lovely calendar once again set the trajectory for my day. As I was checking its message for May 8 I saw the name Julian of Norwich(1342-1416) etched at the bottom of the square. While I was unsure exactly what it meant, I smiled at the thought that somehow this day must be connected to her in some way. This writer whose beautiful words I discovered many years ago always seems to ground me and fill me with immense hope. For those unfamiliar with her, Julian was an English woman regarded as one of the most important Christian mystics. Her wisdom and influence is celebrated by both the Anglican and Lutheran churches and it seems today, May 8th, is her Feast Day.
Like many women of her time, the details of her life are somewhat sketchy but the beauty of her words and their rich intention ring out through time.

One of the first experiences I had with her came in planning an Easter worship service years ago. We were searching for words that reflected the nature of God to always be about rebirth. Julian spoke: “And in this he showed me something small, no bigger than a hazelnut, lying in the palm of my hand, as it seemed to me, and it was as round as a ball. I looked at it with the eye of my understanding and thought: What can this be? I was amazed that it could last, for I thought that because of its littleness, it would suddenly have fallen into nothing. And I was answered in my understanding: It lasts and always will, because God loves it; and thus everything has being through the love of God.” This poetic image of how the Holy is made known in even the tiniest of created things was made visible to those worshipping through the image of the hands of a child cupping their tiny, somewhat dirty little hands and in the center lay a hazelnut. As these words were spoken, you could feel a relaxing move through those gathered. If the hazelnut is loved then so are all. Ahhhh….

Such wisdom, once discovered, might go on to incorporate her affirmation: “The fullness of joy is to behold God in everything.God is the ground, the substance,the teaching, the teacher,the purpose, and the reward for which every soul labors.” What might our days be like if we got up, planted our feet on the ground, and took on the mantle of these words to guide our working, our playing, our meeting, our conversations? What if this pursuit of joy was our labor?

It could, of course, only be answered by these few words: “What could make me love
my fellow Christian better than to see that God loves us all as if we were all one soul?” I would venture to say, as I read Julian’s words, that if living in these days some 500 years later than her own time, she would include more than just her Christian brothers and sisters in that statement.

Julian seemed to understand what many living today may not. Her words and her work seemed to be about connecting those around her with the gift of positive presence, of opening eyes to the movement of the Holy in the every day. She didn’t even have to understand how it works or be tied to results she could readily see. “Pray inwardly, even if you do not enjoy it. It does good, though you feel nothing. Yes, even though you think you are doing nothing.” Something to consider, don’t you think?

But of all Julian’s words the ones that cut right to the heart of the matter, those that over and over again bring calm, a deep breath, a check in with what is real are contained in this simple sentence. “All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.” How many times over the years I have used this as my mantra!

So on this day I step across the ecumenical aisle and claim Julian as my own. I feast on her words and know the nourishment of this food. Blessed are you, ancient woman, who continues to speak through the ages.

In the turning of the bowl
is the turning of the world,
and in every moment
somewhere
the day is turning to darkness.
Bless those who welcome it,
who long for it;
bless those who fear it
and bid it quickly pass.
And those who touch
with delight in the night,
bless;
and those who cry out
as the shadows give way
to terror,
bless too.
Make us bold
in the darkness
to protect each other’s slumber,
and make us courageous
in the night
to guard each other’s dreams.
~Jan L. Richardson

On Friday I had the privilege of watching a wood turner create bowls out of random pieces of wood. I had seen his work before at our church. He often offers up his creations as fundraisers for different ministries but I had never really heard him speak of how he creates these works of art nor had I watched him at his craft. Before I watched him turn the wood on his lathe, I looked with awe at a display of various sizes and shapes of bowls and other work of his hands. Each bowl was unique and marked with the internal DNA of the wood from which it was born. He explained the ways of working with different kinds of wood, the way the grain felt in his hands, how he knew when the inside of a vase was finished by the weight and feel. It was fascinating.

The part of this process that was most fascinating to me was the way in which his real work was to be present to what the wood already was. As he placed the piece of wood….oak, birch, maple, cherry…..on the lathe, he had no idea what patterns would evolve from his act of turning. He pointed out the surprises of the grains, the swirls, the varying shades of light and dark, the lines that seemed painted in intricate forms by an artist’s brush. One piece he lifted up clearly had the face of an owl! With each piece of wood taken from a once living tree, another life form was coaxed into existence by his patient, slow, metered touch.

As I and others watched him work on a piece of wood, slowly turning it and moving it with skill and fluidity, I was struck with the notion that this turning was a metaphor for all life. What often meets our eye is only a fraction of the possibility and beauty that lies just below the surface. Many times the turnings that happen to us feel frightening and abrasive at the onset. But often that very same turning chips away the old patterns, the dead, no longer needed crust that can give way to something surprising, some amazement within we had not known existed . It is an important thing to remember as we encounter others, especially those who rub us the wrong way. It is an important thing to remember when looking outward at our world which often troubles. It is an important thing to remember as we hold gently our own spirits, our own lives.

In the turning of the bowl…..is the turning of the world……

A couple of weeks ago I listened to an interview which Krista Tippett conducted with author Sylvia Boorstein. It was such a refreshing conversation about parenting entitled ‘What Sustains’. This wise grandmother, mother, psychotherapist and meditation teacher who describes herself as a Jewish-Buddhist poured out wise and comforting words about the joys and difficulty of being a parent, of tying your life to another’s in a life-long commitment. It was a joy to listen to and I passed it on to several I know who are parents of young children, trying to juggle family, home and career. Her advice seemed to be…..breathe!

At one point of the conversation, Boorstein made the statement: ‘Indignation is so seductive.’ As I recall she was speaking of the many ways we dig in our heels about particular ways of doing things or in response to the ways in which others may choose to do the same thing. In hearing her, I quickly got out a piece of paper and wrote down those words. Indignation is so seductive. I have come back several times to these words, allowing them to roll around in my mouth, my mind, my heart.

On a personal level, I am given to indignation. Are you? For the record, indignation means ‘anger aroused by something unjust, mean, or unworthy.’ I can find myself full of indignation at many things….being cut off in traffic…..being ignored as I say something in a meeting…..being overlooked for something I think I have contributed……being invisible because of my gender or age or (fill in the blank)….because of my political leanings or my faith tradition. This is nothing I am proud of. I can eat the food of indignation for breakfast, lunch and dinner somedays and then wonder why I feel so miserable.

As I have thought about the seduction that indignation offers, I have recognized that when you begin to peel back the layers of its allure, you find control, self-righteousness and often a lack of self esteem lurking between the petals. Of course, this is not always true. There are many situations in our world that are truly unjust, oppressive and mean and they deserve our anger. But the indignation that I can feast on most days is more about me than about others.

What fills you with indignation these days? Is there anger bubbling up that might serve up a better world? Or is the anger you feast upon only making for a less happy, less compassionate you? The Zen Buddhist teacher Tich Nhat Hahn offers this wisdom:“When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don’t blame the lettuce. You look for reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce. Yet if we have problems with our friends or family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will
grow well, like the lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and argument. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change”.

So, the next time I feel myself being seduced by my own self-righteous anger, perhaps I will think of lettuce……and make myself a salad instead of the gut-wrenching food of indignation.

“If you can read this, thank a teacher.”
~Common Bumper Sticker

This past Monday I was in the presence of greatness. I was privileged to be witness to the reunion of one of our church members and his fourth grade teacher. Both are actually members of the same church and have only come to know this in the last year or so. You see, the student is nearly fifty years old. His teacher is ninety-five.

I learned of this relationship when visiting the elder of the two in her assisted living residence. She was proudly showing me school pictures of students she had taught. She still remembered many names and even knew what some were doing with their lives. It was a wonderful moment for me when I was able to tell her that one of her students whose work she follows in the local newspaper is a member of her church. From that time on, I set about getting them to meet again.

And what a joy it was! I loved listening to the memories and the questions. Questions about how he came to do the work he does and other questions about the wisdom she has of what children need. The conversation was lively and filled with rich words and connection. I was drawn in now and then but I mostly loved watching these two generations collide after such a long time. I loved seeing the respect for one another and the genuine desire to hear the stories of the other.

Those of us who have been teachers or have worked with children in various settings know the joy and challenge of such work. Each child holds such potential and it is a true gift to watch them discover, not only how to do things or develop skills, but also how to become their own authentic person. An observant adult can see the places where confidence needs building up or how a moment of undivided attention makes all the difference in the world. How many times I have thought to myself, “I want to know you when you are twenty or thirty!” after a child says or does something that hints of who they are becoming.

Other than parents, teachers can be the adults who can care unconditionally about a child. They can have an influence that can last a lifetime as I was able to see on Monday. This experience has made room for me to once again give thanks for those teachers who ‘saw’ me and allowed my own unique gifts and spirit develop, those who listened without judgment to my ideas and passions. I give thanks for Mr. Williams who taught me the joy of singing for the sheer joy of how it felt in your throat. And for Miss Neff who taught me that history was more than the wars we fought but also the art we have created, the music we have composed, the literature we have written. I give thanks for Mrs. Elcess who didn’t make red marks on my poetry sans capital letters in senior English class, instead saying ” I see you have been reading e.e.cummings.” I give thanks for all those teachers who gave of their time and used their own resources often beyond what they were ever paid to do. And I am filled to overflowing with gratitude to all those who continued to believe in me when I was finding it difficult to believe in myself.

These days, with budget cuts and the ways in which school systems are forced to structure and restructure themselves, teachers often get the short end of the stick. They are jockeyed about by institutions and leadership that often misses the mark for what children really need to become the best human being they can be. The kind of human being who takes time from a busy schedule to sit and be present to another human being who watched him take some of his first intellectual steps in the world. The kind of human being who gave of herself so the world can be a better place.

If you have read this, thank a teacher.

” ‘Wondering is a word connoting at least three things: Standing in disbelief. Standing in the question itself. Standing in awe before something.”
~Richard Rohr, The Naked Now: Learning to See as the Mystics See

I have found myself doing a fair share of wondering these days. I have been in several situations where I have found it unclear what was really happening. This has mostly been in meetings where decisions were being made, where people were engaged in debate and dialogue about a particular issue and have become entrenched in standing their ground in a way that made me wonder what the ‘conversation behind the conversation’ really was. Ever have experiences like this? It is an experience of the furrowed-brow.

So it was with a certain amount of relief that, while reading a book by author and speaker Richard Rohr that I came across the words that gave some context to my own wonderings. In it he describes a time when certain arms of the Catholic church were actually debating societies, hardly ever holding the same opinions on anything while still being welcome in the tradition. “Unfortunately, in later centuries this practice degenerated to just needing answers. And preferably certain answers. And preferably about everything. We moved from wondering to answering, which hasn’t served us well at all.”

Can I hear an “Amen”? My deep amen comes from reading how my own United Methodist church is behaving as they gather for our General Conference. This coming together happens every four years and allows us to once again reaffirm who we believe ourselves to be as one arm of a diverse band who seek to follow Jesus. At this gathering there is opportunity to listen to the lives of those present, how the Holy is moving in them and to agree to change, amend, remove the language in our Discipline, the book that guides us. In short, it is meant to be a time of wondering. But the reports I read of what is actually happening seems very far from this ancient gift of standing in the questions posed by a universe birthed by Mystery. Instead, it is more about answers and certainty and creating camps of those who are in and those who are out, those who are right and those who are wrong. It breaks my heart.

Of course, in our political life together we see the same drama being played out. The rhetoric is exhausting and filled with exaggerations and half-truths. In the muddled noise that flies over the airwaves, there is very little room for wondering, little room for standing in the questions in a way that might lead us to some greater understanding of not only ourselves but of the working ways of the world. What happened to that time of listening and learning from the experience of another? That time of hoping to evolve the wisdom planted within that is an ever-opening blossom?

What are you wondering about these days? What questions do you find yourself standing smack in the middle of? Who is standing there with you? Are you listening to one another with gentleness? What recent sight or sound or experience has filled you with an awe that took your breath away?

This gift of wonder is, I believe, planted at the heart of all Creation, at the heart of each of us. On this day, may we all be caught up in wondering. May it startle us and humble us. May it draw us closer in the Spirit’s tether. For our own good and the good of the world.

“I laugh at my failing strength in old age,
Yet still dote on pines and crags, to wander there in solitude.
How I regret that in all these past years until today,
I’ve let things run their course like an unanchored boat.”
~ Tr. James Hargett

A couple of days ago I bought a beautiful, small book simply entitled ‘Zen Poems’. All are poems from the Zen Buddhist tradition translated from several languages into English. This morning as I looked through this little tome, I was struck with these four lines. I often find myself circled by people who speak of their age, whether young or old in years. It seems one of those barometers by which we measure all kinds of things. Strength. Intellect. Wisdom. Success. Failure. Personal appearance. To name a few. Sometimes there is laughter about the years and other times great sadness at however we allow the meter to measure this thing we call life.

The first thing about this poem that captures my imagination is the wisdom, I believe, of a life spent wandering in a wilderness that offers pines, crags and especially solitude. It might be that the poet has the ability to laugh at a waning strength in the accumulated years because they knew the gift and wisdom of solitude. I dare say, many of us reach some advanced years without ever learning the immense offering that the practice of solitude can bring to us.

The second thing about this poem is the word regret. I would venture a guess that none of us want to reach our middle or later years with too many portions of regret on our plates. It is a unique experience to, in the presence of good and trusted friends, to articulate those things we hope to never regret. Some of these are regrets of what we have done but most often they are those we have left undone. This is the source of the term ‘Bucket List’. Those regrets of what we have left undone can paralyze in ways that slash our souls and harden our hearts.

And then there is the wonderful image of that unanchored boat, a boat that has been without chart or course or what grounds it. This is the line that nags me most of all. How much of my life has been frittered away with trivial details that mean very little in the course of what is truly important? How many moments have been lost in a sea of activity that was more like a dog chasing its own tail than any purposeful practice of living? And how many days have I allowed the gift of solitude to be drowned out by the monkey mind of list upon list? Maybe these are not questions that you have asked yourself but they are those I carry firmly packed in my own baggage.

The poets words have urged me to think about how I shape the patterns of my days. And, of course, the ways in which we shape our days is the way in which we shape our lives. So here are my questions for your consideration and my own at the beginning of this spring weekend: How are you measuring your years, your age? Are you taking stock of what is really important to you? What are your regrets? What has been done or left undone that is important to you? How do you want to shape your days and your life? In what are you anchoring your boat?

Zen poetry is about being honest, about being present, about letting go, about connecting with what river runs deepest in us. May we all be open to the questions and ready to receive the wisdom of the answers.

Blessed be.